Monday, March 5, 2012

RELATiONSHiPS HAVE STAGES ♥



Today is the day of equalibrium of my relationship (i.e X total days we was together = X total days we break off)
Because of this matter i am emotionally disturbed for the whole day... :( on one hand my co-worker has fallen ill, so i have to help him to complete this MOU drafts as meeting will be tomorrow...on the other i have my own MOU to complete as well as my agents are waiting for my reply too...plus today is the equilibrium day to add on...total today is a bad day :(

Though i may have work to do, but i am not afraid of them because as i have confident to complete them all in few hours, however i just can't focus well today cuz of equalibrium day...this is an important day to me personally as i believed before the due of the equilibrium day, our relationships are still strong and chances to get back together are still high, however after the equilibrium day, chances of getting back together are reduced from 50% to >5% overnight

Well though we still communicate like good friends daily, but somehow after conversation i just always feel like always talking to the person i love but on the other hand i need to force myself to talk to you in a friend tone...this mix feeling is just so difficult :( deep down i just want to talk to you as the girl i always admired and love but, on the other hand i need to control myself and be well behave...sigh its just not natural.... :( i am just not sure what this feeling is....

After a whole day of being emo, i did some research and below are the findings of relationships, i noticed that all relationships comes with stages and somehow the findings of the relationships are below
.....i love you WC, and i hope the myricles does occur soon...i can't do much but just hope and wait...just hope and wait....hope....hope...hope................................

STAGE 1 (1-3 Months): The Honeymoon Stage

Everything seems perfect, both are happy and feeling “in love.” You share moments, dates and just having fun with each other, sharing laughs and giggles. It’s like nothing could stop you. Your feelings are infinite, and for once you’re thinking, “This may work out….” and it seems like nothing could go wrong. You spend hours getting ready before going out with this person.

*If your relationship ended in this stage — Most likely, both rushed into the relationship too quickly. Being together was all too sudden and just for the moment. When one starts noticing the flaws, one gets a choice to move foward, or back away. Being friends has a high percentage of working out, but nothing to stress over. Both may just need the time to get to know one another better.

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STAGE 2 (4-6 months): The Bumpy Road
Things are going okay now. The relationship is calm and settled; both are still mostly happy. Had a couple arguments and disagreements here and there, nothing huge. Start to notice some of each other’s flaws and aspects of their personalities not seen before, but still truly care for one another.

*If your relationship ended in this stage — You truly cared about this person. You had the energy to fight for this person, yet you feel as if something was lacking, something was missing. It doesn’t feel right, one isn’t happy. When one isn’t happy, one tends to walk away to seek their new happiness. Being friends is still a possibility.

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STAGE 3 (7-12 months): The Rocky Mountain
You start to realize who your partner really is. A few more arguments may occur. Problems with jealously, overprotectiveness may arise. Other people may come in the picture. The “in love” moments start to decrease, but you feel as if you’ve “fallen in love.” You tend to have this energy inside to strive and “make it work,” and you feel more comfortable being around this person, feeling more of yourself.

*If your relationship ends in this stage — You feel as if you’re hurt, depending on the circumstances. You were so sure that that person was “The One.” You were so SURE that he/she was different. But like a cancer, a problem that may have happened, a small issue, grew into something larger that took over what was made between two people. You still miss this person from time to time. You still remember the memories. Being friends may be difficult right away, but over time, you slowly mature up, and learn the reality of it.

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STAGE 4 (1 year or more): The Long Road
1, 2, 3, 4, 5 years, huh? This person truly means something to you. You are “in love” with this person. He/she made a difference in your life. No one else knows you more than this person. You guys have been through the good, the bad, and the ugly, and still strive to make it last.

*If your relationship ends in this stage — You feel heartbroken; it’s tough. You can’t sleep, can’t eat, you miss him/her, you try to move on, you try meeting new people, but seems like nothing works. For whatever reason the split occured, it must’ve been something important, or something must have been so wrong that it took over. Being “just friends” is impossible, because if you tried to be friends, you wouldn’t be able to think of them in any other way besides the one you once “loved.”

Monday, February 20, 2012

Feeling of Reminiscent

One month ago, at this very second (7:30pm) marks the bitter moment of my another journey. i could still remember it was a rainy day and it was the eve of the lunar new year 2012. I could still remember i was instructed to collect an important document from the Ministry Department before everyone call it a break for the holiday.

At that time, the traffic at the city centre was terrible and all land transports moves bumper by bumper. i was looking at my time anxiously to get back to office to fetch her back. Unfortunately things got even worse when the weather starts pouring even heavier and thus i am unable to call her to inform her on the delay. to safe time further, i tried to ramp through the emergency lane and tried my best to exit into the highway. as i approaching the National Parliament my phone finally rank and it was a call from her. i unfortunately due to bad weather, we had tried several time to communicate but she just can't hear my voice over the phone. By that time i was already 45 mins late from the initial meeting up time, and on top of that we are unable to communicate with each other clearly, eventually....she demanded a break off from our relationship. of course i understood the reason of the break off is not off this matter, but other pressures she is facing throughout our relationship from co-workers, my parents and my personality as well.

All that had occurred one month ago and today, it has been a month since we are no longer together. I had tried several times, to persuade, to comfort, to talk about the possibility of getting back together however all attempts failed. And this kind of situation had brought me back to the reminiscent of my previous relationships when i again failed in securing my hope of a good, long lasting relationship.

From the Reminiscent of the past i could remember the following lessons taught by all my Exs and how i should really learn those and not failed in the future attempt again.

Reminiscent lessons 1 by my 1st ex-
Chapter 1) She taught me how to spend and relax as and when necessary, in life there is no point of keeping too much money in banks and assets if i do not know how to spend it during special day, celebrations and to needy charity
Chapter 2) She taught me how to be more socialised, through out a relationship do not just stick to the world of two and we must not forget the other persons around us including, friends, relatives and family.
Chapter 3)She taught me how to keep the 'Promises'. As words are easily said out from the big mouth, it is also wise for one to 'Think before talking'. Never ever in life say the word 'i promise you' or 'i will do that for you' if you know you are not committed in delivering it. only promise to a person if and only if you really meant it, and by rain or shine must fulfil the promises made even though it is delivered late as there is a saying, its better to be late than never.

Reminiscent lessons 2 by my 2nd ex-
Chapter 1) In my young adult life i was bombarded with work, relationship and studies . and thus taking own health is a big thing as there is no point of getting good results, good pay but without getting a good health.
Chapter 2) Exercise as and when there are time, make full use of my free time to do jogging, and sports around
Chapter 3) Read up articles on health, it is good to always take note of the total dairy supplement in order to maintain health. all meals need to be balanced and do not be choosy of food served, always help the needy and those who need help
Chapter 4) Cookery Skills, she is the only one who has always prepared meals for me. And since i am a reasonable cook at home, she always became my new dishes tester subjects and give comments on how to improve my cookery

Reminiscent lessons 3 by my 3rd ex-
Chapter 1) Relationship or marriage is not a matter of two people, but its a connections of two families.
Chapter 2) Its time to grow up, do not be too needy and cinchy in a relationship, sometimes its good to give both parties some 'space of free time'
Chapter 3) Family Values, in life we must not only care and pursue our own personal dreams, but also need to pay good attention of respect to our parents.
Chapter 4) Tried to avoid parents and girlfriend face to face meeting during the early stage of new relationship as early meeting with parents on relationship matters could create a lot of pressures.

Well those are the lessons i learned out from what i had failed previously. i hope i am able to learn those lessons full heartily and...hope i wont disappoint any one in my future attempts...

A Reminiscence
Yes, thou art gone! and never more;
thy sunny smile shall gladded me;
but i may pass the old church door,
and pace the floor that cover three.

May stand upon the cold, damp stone,
and think that, frozen, lies below
the lightest heart that i have known,
the kindest i shall very know.

yet, though i cannot see three more,
'Tis still a comfort to have seen;
and though thy transient life is o'er,
'Tis sweet to think that thou hast been;

To think a soul so near divine,
Within a form so angel fair,
united to a heart like thine,
has gladdended once our humble sphere.
Lastly, I Love You so much 'Lim WC'
I really hope we can get back together, we what we were last time... ♥ ♥ ♥

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Baby Come back to me~

Its a good 3 days holidays, though initially i thought am able to complete my assignments but due to unforeseen reasons, i am now rushing them in a cold and rainy sunday :S

IT has been 6 months since i broke up with O TwT...and though i had been cutting all communications with her for de past 2 months and so..but today...out of de blue, i felt like missing you...

Baby Come Back to Me
The rain falls on my windows
And a coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone

I wish that I could photoshop all our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy, you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million

Anything from A to Z
Call me what you wanna but
I open my heart to be
You are my priority
Can't you see you punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby come back to me...Baby come back to me~

7/11/2010
A cloudy Sunday
~Shang~

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Staying focus!

Hohoho it's a Thursday morning 5am and I juz woke up suddenly, prob due to missing my darling I guess :S haha it's way too early so better not to disturbed her yet till 530am lolz

yeah it's already the 3rd week of October 2010 and wow time really passes soooo fast as in my memories I can still remember I was celebrating 2010 countdown je lolz. So a quick review of wot I had achieved since Jan 2010 till today...

Resolutions completed for 2010
1) broadening network- yes I finaly made it as I manage to make atleast a new friends a month...checked!
2) pursue further education- yes I had juz completed my first degree late last year and I manage to get into an MBA prog now...checked!
3) achieving my language goals (7 languages) - yea I will be picking up my Japanese classes starting next week...so I take that as a "In progress thingy"...checked!
4) achieving a harmonious relationship- ya though something unexpected happen around d middle of this year with my ex (> <)" but luckly enuf I manage to find a harmonious relationship with "S" for de 2nd half of d year....ernm so I guess that's a checked!
5) learning more things- ohh yes this is something I really love throughout...I was posted to the "front line" department middle of this year and indeed it is the most challenging things I ever experienced in my life...I manage to learn up new skills (I.e : Photoshop, illustrator, movie maker, create better operation flows, sharpening my spying skills, sharpening my organization skills, people skills and the best part is, manage to work wish a group of experts and smart people...I guess this point is a definate a checked!
6) balanced life- hoho though my friends often said I spent too much time working haha but below the surface I do hv a better life, by pempering my self surrounded with good foodies, smart gadgate, funny and cheerful gf (ohh my love ^_^) + a good year end trip...I guess I am pretty happy enuf though...so I guess it is a checked!

All in all I think I had completed 6 goals for 2010, moving forward I still have 3 months to achieved what ever pending for this year...there r soooo many things to do with so little time...I really hope I can do better for my current job, be more focus of my monthly, quarterly ad yearly target, otherwise I would have to restrategized my work plans real soon...hopefully wish the last 3 months of the year, I am able to achieved my "special goals"

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Looking forward to a wonderful day ^_^

It is a Tuesday cloudy morning,

Haha and I actually woke up quite early, after getting shower n here I am now, blogging while having my lovely warm and cool cereal breakfast.

It was a wonderful good start as I was planning on what to do in Korea and what to get ready, I guess the "To-Do" lists is going to be so long still :S

anyway since I already have "a carrot" to look forward to, ofcourse I must be extra productive in work and studies before the trip.
So my mission for today 19/10/10 are:

1) getting the company's website update with video clips, new info, graphics etc by this week!
2) getting my 2 assignment completed by this two week
3) I will be having a Toastmasters speech assignment No.5 this Wednesday so ya I want to strife to be the best speaker of the day ^_^
4) hang out with darling by this weekends as we still have tons of "to-go-locations"
5) last but not least hitting my monthly target by getting sales of atleast RM20,000 by the end of the month.
6) find more channels to boost up the brand awareness of the company (argh which I need to think from time to time, luckly enuf I has been working with 4 smart people around my team, luckly I am able to get good support and help yay! ^_^)
7) making atleast 2more new friends by the end of the moth, ohh yeah that's part of my personal networking expension goals of my life
8) make and effort to run around the 8km track long in BJ as I really really really need to sweat more + eat more fruit (too bad...since this is the most complaint from my darling as I look like a White lizard :S)

ya tentatively I just set these 8 mission for Oct 2010 haha not too embitions but it is already more than enuf muahaha kayao kayao ganbateh ganbateh, good job good job muahahah ^_^

Monday, October 18, 2010

Wishes for Year end 2010

Hullo People ! haha if you guys do check out my blog frequently...lolz thankx haha as i has been in-active of blog recently due to work + studies + lazyness (ohh yeah i confessed) hahaha

it is a great day, after chatting with my lovely cute girldfriend haha felt like dont want to sleep for the whole night but chatting all the way ! lolz...but too bad...i gota work tomorrow, so ya gota cut the conversation earlier to safe by energy for tomorrow work :S :S :S

as year end 2010 is approaching second by second...here are some wishes i wanna make it through by this year end 2010

1) get myself a new lap top- ohh yeah thought no doubt my current laptop is awesome and i love it, since my current laptop has been accompanying my since my diploma studies + degree and currently master studies...thought i am going to buy the strongest laptop of the year muhahaha XD (which i cant wait though) but, this lovely green laptop of mine will still be kept and be used throughout the life spend ^_^ so since i am getting a new laptop...as my favorite Idol since young (Donald Trump) always said 'if you want to do it, my as well you do it BIG!' so ya i will be picking the best and the most highend unit...the one and the only one...'Alien Ware' MX15 XD ...hohoho finally i can hv a powerful station to play with + a super computer to speed up my work in editing website, videos (ohhh yeah i am learning video shooting + editing)and also photoshop(ohh yeah i am learning photoshop too) muahahah below is my dream laptop for year 2010



2) pick up new language - yeah for those who followed by previous post, i mentioned ...throughout my life...i want to mater lots of languages namely ; bahasa malaysia, english, chinese, japanese , korean, french, german ...as per 2010, i added a new language in my wishlist thats spanish ^_^...in order to achieve my dreams, i will be starting my japanese classes somewhere mid october 2010 ^_^ go go go ...good job good job~ muhahaha XD


3) Year end trip 2010 - hohoho its finally towards year end jor...well to me year end is a must for my to hv a trip...its the only time i have fun and look forward to every year muhaha...after crecking my head for few months of thinking which country should i visit this year...then finally Year End trip 2010 to Korea muahha XD it was an awesome idea..a 13 days trip to Korea muahha XD so ya i will have a good time and i hope to experience the wonder and technological advancement of Korea ^_^

Saturday, September 18, 2010

My Saturday night after exam

Ohhh yeah finally de exam is now officially over hahaha felt like a rock has juz been removed from my head lolz~
well initially my plan was to drop by sushi shop makan puas puas shushi session, however rite after my exam, I went out with classmates and makan makan @ mamak lolz

the exam was awesome, fought a good battle with honor~ haha rite now juz need to sit back and enjoy my rest time~ while waiting for the results after maybe a few more weeks ba~ oh well 2 are down, 11 more to go plus a big boss till I officially conquer the MBA country ^_^

so after mamak, went bac to office, it was a good and quiet Saturday @ office, so I make full use of this moment and executed the 5S around my work place lolz fuyoh I never know there r so many rubbish around and on my table lolz, I fink I really need to learn how to with palerlessly jor lolz, anyway after cometing de mini spring cleaning session around my work place, I asked my buddy to play chess with my, as to relax and unwinds myself after exam yahoo! ^_*

after the chess session @ office, I went out for dinner with family @ Damansara area, ordered a fish head noodle + blackberry + strawberry juice= yummy ^_^ it was a huge meal and I mist say I makan till bloated jor haha, if I have the extra £££ I fink I would just go for another shushi mean "p but ya I guess I gota save some £ otherwise I will really be suffering from deficit this month...thanks to my stupid car, I gota keep by £ tight and safe.

Rite now I just got back from makan, nvm no shushi on Saturday, I still have another makan backup, which includes instant noodles or a bow of milk plus cereals or something, if m so despirato for food, perhaps I will juz sneak around my quiet neighbourhood and makan some passerby if the time and chance is right "p yummy, lama I din makan human jor haha XD

okie movie night time, though I hv no darling to teman now, but nevermind I can still grab de bearbear she gave me last time n hopefully I don't eat d bear due to too hungry tonight~

good luck bearbear, if possible I don't want to eat you~~~ muahahahah XD

kanone
18/9/2010
a dry and hot Saturday night