One month ago, at this very second (7:30pm) marks the bitter moment of my another journey. i could still remember it was a rainy day and it was the eve of the lunar new year 2012. I could still remember i was instructed to collect an important document from the Ministry Department before everyone call it a break for the holiday.
At that time, the traffic at the city centre was terrible and all land transports moves bumper by bumper. i was looking at my time anxiously to get back to office to fetch her back. Unfortunately things got even worse when the weather starts pouring even heavier and thus i am unable to call her to inform her on the delay. to safe time further, i tried to ramp through the emergency lane and tried my best to exit into the highway. as i approaching the National Parliament my phone finally rank and it was a call from her. i unfortunately due to bad weather, we had tried several time to communicate but she just can't hear my voice over the phone. By that time i was already 45 mins late from the initial meeting up time, and on top of that we are unable to communicate with each other clearly, eventually....she demanded a break off from our relationship. of course i understood the reason of the break off is not off this matter, but other pressures she is facing throughout our relationship from co-workers, my parents and my personality as well.
All that had occurred one month ago and today, it has been a month since we are no longer together. I had tried several times, to persuade, to comfort, to talk about the possibility of getting back together however all attempts failed. And this kind of situation had brought me back to the reminiscent of my previous relationships when i again failed in securing my hope of a good, long lasting relationship.
From the Reminiscent of the past i could remember the following lessons taught by all my Exs and how i should really learn those and not failed in the future attempt again.
Reminiscent lessons 1 by my 1st ex-
Chapter 1) She taught me how to spend and relax as and when necessary, in life there is no point of keeping too much money in banks and assets if i do not know how to spend it during special day, celebrations and to needy charity
Chapter 2) She taught me how to be more socialised, through out a relationship do not just stick to the world of two and we must not forget the other persons around us including, friends, relatives and family.
Chapter 3)She taught me how to keep the 'Promises'. As words are easily said out from the big mouth, it is also wise for one to 'Think before talking'. Never ever in life say the word 'i promise you' or 'i will do that for you' if you know you are not committed in delivering it. only promise to a person if and only if you really meant it, and by rain or shine must fulfil the promises made even though it is delivered late as there is a saying, its better to be late than never.
Reminiscent lessons 2 by my 2nd ex-
Chapter 1) In my young adult life i was bombarded with work, relationship and studies . and thus taking own health is a big thing as there is no point of getting good results, good pay but without getting a good health.
Chapter 2) Exercise as and when there are time, make full use of my free time to do jogging, and sports around
Chapter 3) Read up articles on health, it is good to always take note of the total dairy supplement in order to maintain health. all meals need to be balanced and do not be choosy of food served, always help the needy and those who need help
Chapter 4) Cookery Skills, she is the only one who has always prepared meals for me. And since i am a reasonable cook at home, she always became my new dishes tester subjects and give comments on how to improve my cookery
Reminiscent lessons 3 by my 3rd ex-
Chapter 1) Relationship or marriage is not a matter of two people, but its a connections of two families.
Chapter 2) Its time to grow up, do not be too needy and cinchy in a relationship, sometimes its good to give both parties some 'space of free time'
Chapter 3) Family Values, in life we must not only care and pursue our own personal dreams, but also need to pay good attention of respect to our parents.
Chapter 4) Tried to avoid parents and girlfriend face to face meeting during the early stage of new relationship as early meeting with parents on relationship matters could create a lot of pressures.
Well those are the lessons i learned out from what i had failed previously. i hope i am able to learn those lessons full heartily and...hope i wont disappoint any one in my future attempts...
A Reminiscence
Yes, thou art gone! and never more;
thy sunny smile shall gladded me;
but i may pass the old church door,
and pace the floor that cover three.
May stand upon the cold, damp stone,
and think that, frozen, lies below
the lightest heart that i have known,
the kindest i shall very know.
yet, though i cannot see three more,
'Tis still a comfort to have seen;
and though thy transient life is o'er,
'Tis sweet to think that thou hast been;
To think a soul so near divine,
Within a form so angel fair,
united to a heart like thine,
has gladdended once our humble sphere.
Lastly, I Love You so much 'Lim WC'
I really hope we can get back together, we what we were last time... ♥ ♥ ♥
